First time

So I know the name sucks, but it kind of was what I was aiming for.
I'll start with who I am, a sixteen year old, just like more than three-quarters of the internet population. I live in India. And I have a dream just like every other teen in the world. You could say its like the dream Kira from Death note has except without any shinigami helping me. I have got something else entirely.
You see I am under this delusion that a Greek titan spends time in my body along with a Greek god. You could say I am a retard at this but the thing is I have convinced my self that this is true based on things that have happened to me in my short lifespan. And all of it makes sense. I'll tell you all about that later. It's not that important.
I thought I was gonna put a study on human psychology based on the experiences I have had. In fact I have a notebook where I write that stuff down. I might put that up later, but I'll only refer to it once in a while, cause I don't have it right now, and i intended to make a blog on that.
I believe in destiny, (the game looks amazing, not that I played it) and am trying not to rationalize the presence of it in this universe so I can blame something, and usually I get this super duper gut instinct feeling from it that points me in a direction where everything is good. I am all for placebo.
I have been dependent on this thing from as long as I can remember. But, since this blog is about what I do and why I do it, I'll get to it.
I have this seasonal change of behavior I'd like to write about. You see every time I consider something to be a fact it changes in any way, and I'd like to change this.
I tend to change my mind on social interactions every month or so. Sometimes I wanna be alone and sometimes I don't. The lonely periods are usually spent discovering myself. I guess everyone does that right? I, however, find things about myself that I don't enjoy thinking about, which is not that bad cause then I get to change my outlook on things. Then I decide that society isn't half that bad and renew relations with my friends. Since I live in a hostel, my parents don't know whats wrong with their son.
The reasons why I put society as a bad thing is different for every change in my personality, therefore I can't put those reasons up.

This guy I know, Felix, lives in the junior hostel but is senior to me, says that I shouldn't use logic to do things. How am I supposed to do that? Logic is what man is sure is correct, what else can I depend on to do things?
(I swear my English is much better in person, I don't use "do things" all the time)
This destiny thing tells me what to do through dreams usually, even though I use my mind (as my football coach says) I find a way to train my thoughts in the right direction to follow destiny's path.
I mean there are millions of reasons for doing just one thing right?
I wan't to break up with my girlfriend but destiny tells me she will do it herself. By destiny I mean the Greek god (not the titan) living in my body,only in this part. I think the gods have a way of putting their hand in the things that happen to be random in nature to do their bidding. I also believe that the gods are present in everyone in the form of the thoughts we think and it all changes according to the one who needs the gods attention. I don't mean me by that, I have seen them favor someone else too in reality, only place where I have the godly powers are in my dreams, but those dreams affect reality in some way or the other. But I don't mind that.